Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Don't just hope....BELIEVE


Dear Friends…
These blogs are getting harder and harder to write. Our boys are sick and there is no way to sugar coat things. Jayden is plagued by constant pain and headaches, sleeping copious amounts of the day. Christian is a serious color of yellow – letting us know that his liver is being encroached on in a serious way. Mercifully his pain is under good control and he has many moments of levity during the day. We find fun things to do that do not require much energy; he loves to build puzzles with Grammy, work on building his Lego Star Wars, watching Hero Factory over and over, setting up his Star Wars guys and just hanging together on the couch watching Disney Junior.

I don’t want you to sit at home with your head hung down in misery. I want to encourage every single person reading this blog. I want to encourage you with the love of our God, a love that our English language doesn’t have the words to describe. Ephesians 3:18-19 says “…together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ and to know this love that surpasses knowledge of all the fullness of God”.  I trust in the Lord to guide us, protect us and preserve us. He promises this to us in his word. I know that God has a great plan for Christian and Jayden. Their situation may seem insurmountable but with God, nothing is to big or scary. One tumor or a thousand, one second from death or a year – God will work all things out. So please do not loose heart or be sad. Believe with all your heart that God will finish the good works He began in these beautiful boys. Don’t bow your head and beg God for a miracle – turn your eyes up to him and proclaim healing. Know that God will not do anything that is not good. This may be beyond our human understanding but we must trust. If you don’t have this trust in your heart then I ask you right now to drop to your knees and ask God to come into your heart. Ask God to show you love that you have never known or experienced. Accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior knowing that God gave us His only son so that we could have this opportunity. Christmas day is not about presents, turkey, candy, chocolate or trees. Christmas day is the day that God sent his son for us. Would I be so willing to hand over Christian? I don’t think so, but this is what makes God’s love so unbelievable and undeniable. This is the measure of God’s love.
Gifts from the Oncology family
The next verse in Ephesians states, “Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine….” Basically saying that whatever request I come up with in my time spent praying – God’s plan is more magnificent, more grand, more glorious and more wonderful than anything my human brain can conjure. God is for healing and life. So pray with conviction, belief and as much appreciation as we can muster. God wants us to look up to Him and trust, knowing that He will not let us down. No matter how horrible this situation may seem, if you keep your focus on God and not what our human eyes can see then peace will come to you.
Carousel at Chinook mall
Our prayer requests for today are: Please pray for peace and patience for the Phaneuf family while they try to help Jayden through this difficult time. Peace for Chris and I as we try to make Christmas as special as possible – to honor the true meaning of Christmas. Please pray for physical, earthly healing for our two boys. That Christians tumor would shrink and his skin color would be white again and he would be able to eat a good solid amount of food. Pray that Jayden’s tumors would disappear and our Christmas miracle would be complete. And all the Glory belongs to HIM.
We have been so blessed these past few weeks by so many different people in our community. These are things I am thankful for today:

1.GMHS Band putting on an amazing concert with Christian in their hearts
2.Amazing staff at Heaven's fitness (and uncle Peder) for putting on an awesome dance party for Christian
3.The ladies from our church constantly bringing us treats and suppers.
4.The woman from AE Bowers school coming over to ‘freshen up’ our houseJ
5.The Muriel Clayton basketball team (girls) honoring Christian with CC on the back of their warm up jerseys’.


  1. As long as we have our eyes fixed on our Healer and Saviour we are giving honour and glory where it belongs and robbing the enemy of his time in the spotlight. Thank you, Megan, for the reminder that all major victories were won through praise of the One who already fought the battle for us.
    Hebrews 12:2 NIRV
    Let us keep looking to Jesus. He is the author of faith. He also makes it perfect. He paid no attention to the shame of the cross. He suffered there because of the joy he was looking forward to. Then he sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
    Thank you Jesus for enduring the cross so that Christian and Jayden can live. Thank you that by Your stripes they ARE healed. Thank You for your tremendous love for our two warriors. Thank You for the victory.

  2. Wow, oh wow - you're right, the English language isn't adequate for a lot of things. Bless you, Megan, bless you, bless you, bless you. The Lord bless you for your encouragement to us, the Lord bless you being so eager to speak for Him in the face of all that is going on in your life. Every possible blessing (and with God everything is possible) on you and your wonderful family and your wonderful community - all kinds of community - Church, Schools, all of them reaching out to you in the ways you have described to us - in both this blog entry and others. Praising God for all He is accomplishing, not least the complete healing of these two precious boys, Christian and Jayden. Thank you for sharing - for pouring your heart out to us. Alleulia!
    Patricia (Antigonish)

  3. Thank you so very much for the updates. I know, I don't know you or your family very well at all. You have been in my prayers from the very start. I have been wondering how you are doing from day to day, how everyone in your family is. Are you in need of anything? Please let me or many of us know. Somethings may or can get overlooked.
    Thank you so much.

    1. Thank you so much for your kind words and keepping us in your prayers. On a daily basis we are happy and calm. God has granted Christian a lot of comfort and that helps us to stay calm. Right now we have a lot of family staying with us for Christmas so that helps us out a lot:) I can not specifically think of anything that we need - we honestly have been so blessed by our community. Christian loves to receive cards so if you wanted to mail him a card or drop one off our address is
      772 coopers drive
      airdrie, ab
      t4b 2w3
      God bless you:)

  4. God says we will see miracles in our time! I believe! Lets see those miracles GOD.....Shonalie

  5. Praying for peace and rest and sending love and hugs from our house to where you are


  6. Your strength and faith is inspirational Megan. God bless you and your family. Sending heartful thoughts and prayers for peace, and for healing to your Christian every day.

  7. Your faith inspires all of us who read this, Megan. God bless you and your family for touching our hearts.

  8. Your faith amazes me. It truly does. I have told you before, but I'm saying it once inspire me Megan. I am looking up and I am praying for peace and relief from pain and tumors to shrink. Amen.

    Lise W.

  9. I'm on my knees, believing! Believing like I have never believed before.
    Megan your blog has changed my life forever. Christian is so incredible, so wonderful. God bless you, Christian, Jayden, and your families.

    1. I try to believe, but I struggle with praising a deity that gives, or even allows, child cancers.