Wednesday, November 7, 2012


Pumpkin Carvin
Today I borrowed this prayer from my father in law, “God, you are the ultimate Father and Your love is perfect. Christian truly belongs to you and I am blessed to be the earthly mom you chose for him. I have to let go of him now, not in defeat but in trust that You will do good, (whatever that looks like.) I can’t do anything now but choose to trust You with my most precious gift. Come and be his Father as I pass control over to you now. “

As many of you know yesterday Christian had a CT scan. The scan showed us that he has a new tumor growing in his abdomen. We don’t know any specifics but our ‘options’ will be presented to us tomorrow when we have an appointment with Christian’s oncologist. Once again I ask you to drop to your knees in prayer for our family. Pray for peace and strength for Chris and I (as well as our mothers who are both here with us) and physical strength and healing for Christian.

Evelyn and Christian loving West Edmonton Mall rides.
When I first heard the news I was very angry with God, I wondered where He was in all of this. How could this possibly be happening to us again, to Christian? How much does this little man have to endure? I swore at him and wondered if He even existed. I have since repented for swearing at the creator of the earth and questioning His plan J. The only way our family will get through this is to lean on God, totally and completely give ourselves over to Him and trust. This will be my biggest test of faith yet; in this of case of complete desperation will I be able to give everything over to Him? I don’t know but I am going to try because a life without God is a life without purpose or hope. We are going to try and stay the same and focus on spending as much quality time together as a family. Lots of cuddles on the couch and in bed, lots of time making cookies in the kitchen, lots of time spent swimming at the pool and relaxing in the hot tub. Lots of Lego Hero factory battles with Nanny and reading books with Grammy. Lots of play time with his cousins and star wars battles with uncle Peder. Lots of time to learn to really enjoy this life that we have been given, embrace it for its fragility and awesomeness.

Today I am thankful for:
1.All the kids sitting in our bed together watching, How the Grinch Stole Christmas
2.Jesus (that was Christian’s input)
3.Christian and I counting our kisses (we are up to 116)
Evelyn and Christian trying to decide whose taller!
What a pair!!! (Daddy and Christian at school)


  1. Oh Megan, 116 kisses and more from me to you.

  2. one million kisses to you all.

  3. You amaze me all over again - you and your wonderful family - and God, who strengthens you. Thanking God for you and for His healing. In the Name of Jesus, Amen! 116 kisses sounds pretty awesome to me :-) Even more so Christian being thankful for Jesus :-) xx

  4. Gentle hugs and so many prayers for everyone's physical -and spiritual strength as you embrace God and one another through these challenges. Keep your Jedi training top of mind Christian, and know that we are all behind you as you fight. Fight when you can and rest when you need, let us adults and God help to back you in your battle.

  5. I'm praying hard, hard, hard Megan. Promise.

    Lise W.

  6. I'm at a loss for words but the tears are flowing freely.

    "There is in every true woman's heart a spark of heavenly fire, which lies dormant in the broad daylight of prosperity; but which kindles up, and beams and blazes in the dark hour of adversity." ~Washington Irving, The Sketch Book, 1820

    I'm sending you strength and love Megan and Chris.